I needed this
I feel guilty about saying this, because I know it’s been hard for most... but I was relieved that the lockdown gave me an excuse to retreat from the world. My family all live abroad, so I don’t get to see them frequently anyway. Early on during the lockdown I realized how much pressure I place on myself to consistently ‘perform’ to the world. It’s exhausting. For the last weeks, I’ve had a real reason to disengage. Have I focused on myself? No. “Looked within”? No. But I’ve stopped. I’ve paused. I’ve taken a break. And it felt better than most things I’ve done in a long time.