I am learning about my own mental health

I have always had issues with anxiety and depression so when the isolation started I was aware that I had to be very alert. I didn't want this experience to terribly affect my relation with my husband, so I decided to consciously try to be talkative about my feelings, fears and triggers, like never before. Even if I didn't want to or if I feared being vulnerable.

Our relationship is stronger than ever actually. I am not happy this whole thing is happening to all of us but I'm very happy about my response to it.

I needed this

I feel guilty about saying this, because I know it’s been hard for most... but I was relieved that the lockdown gave me an excuse to retreat from the world. My family all live abroad, so I don’t get to see them frequently anyway. Early on during the lockdown I realized how much pressure I place on myself to consistently ‘perform’ to the world. It’s exhausting. For the last weeks, I’ve had a real reason to disengage. Have I focused on myself? No. “Looked within”? No. But I’ve stopped. I’ve paused. I’ve taken a break. And it felt better than most things I’ve done in a long time.